anxiety is terrible, you could be having an attack and no one would even know because it’s an inward thing. it feels like you’re malfunctioning and you can’t process your own thoughts. you get a knot in your stomach and you can’t take a full breath but outwardly you can literally just sit there and look completely normal as long as no one tries to speak to you.
They say we can repress our memories. I wonder if we’re just keeping them safe somewhere. Because no matter how painful they are, they are our most valuable possessions. Our lives are built on our mistakes as much as our successes. They made us who we are.
Well, today I found out I did not pass the bar exam. I guess that’s technically failing the bar. So far I’ve dealt with it particularly well. The pass rate dropped 8% for my state since last year. The pass rate has not been this low since 2004. Awesome. I knew I had a special bar exam year when there were two local government questions. Jeez.
So now the part I most dread is here. I have to tell people. I hate the pity already. Don’t pity me, just don’t. Ugh, I just don’t want to talk about it at all.
Currently having an allergic reaction. Possible causes may be the boyfriend.